In Memoriam

To Suzanne Fiol

By October 5, 2009No Comments

Dear Suzy,

I guess that prob­ably most of the people who read this blog aren’t aware of who you are—Christ, I just can­’t write about you in the past tense—and of what you do—or if I gath­er myself togeth­er as I don’t want to/can’t believe I can, “what you did”—…so I guess some intro­duc­tion is in order. I would hope—and here I address my readers—I would hope that if you live in the tri-state area you might be aware of the ISSUE Project Room, the per­form­ance space that has con­sist­ently housed, or rather, giv­en a wel­com­ing home to, the lead­ing lights of, I won’t be so trite as to call it avant-garde music and art, I’ll just say forward-looking music and art. Suzanne was this entity’s guid­ing light through sev­er­al loc­a­tion­al iter­a­tions, the latest being inside the large com­plex at Third Avenue and Third Street in Brooklyn.2916_i1_suzanne_fiol  And there was more. Through your—that is, Suzanne’s—tireless efforts, ISSUE had pro­cured a new per­man­ent space, in Brooklyn Heights, and des­pite this deplor­able eco­nom­ic down­turn you were tire­less and pas­sion­ate and fierce—fuck, Suzanne, you were noth­ing if not fierce—in get­ting the word out that this space needed money for res­tor­a­tion, money for upkeep, expos­ure to get money, everything.

Our last three or five con­ver­sa­tions were on this top­ic: “When do you think you can write about ISSUE for [magazine X] or [magazine Y]?” I nev­er had a good answer. Coming from any­body else I would have been annoyed. Two factors pre­ven­ted me from this. One. ISSUE was a com­pletely fuck­ing awe­some joint. I remem­ber get­ting shut out from the ven­ue a couple of times when it was host­ing some iter­a­tion of Sonic Youth over at Carroll Street, and me think­ing, “man, is that Suzanne Fiol via whose e‑mail I even found out about this the same Suzanne FIol who…?” And two. FInding out that you WERE in fact the Suzanne who I had I first met in 1985, via J., a woman I had just star­ted dat­ing and the woman who would, for bet­ter or worse, turn me into an actu­al New Yorker. (Introduced me to sushi, among oth­er things.) I remem­ber going with J. to some party in the East Village, in an apart­ment filled with fern plants…in one room were a couple of young­er kids who told us, with much enthu­si­asm, that they were form­ing a band they were gonna call Raging Slab; and later you, Suzy, in the kit­chen, point­ing at me right in front of J. (to whom you were suf­fi­ciently close that you actu­ally shared a page in your high-school year­book), said in your infec­tiously loud voice, “I like him; you should keep him around.”  That was so god­damn abso­lutely you, Suzy: instant­an­eous and unequi­voc­al in your judge­ment, and com­pletely, fiercely loy­al once you had made said judgement.

I was SO glad to re-connect with you in per­son earli­er this year, SO glad to please you by find­ing a car in which to depos­it Led Zeppelin bassist John Paul Jones (and wife and daugh­ter) after he had vet­ted the ISSUE Project Room’s 15-channel speak­er sys­tem, SO glad to turn up of a sum­mer­’s night to see you host­ing my friend Alan Licht and his friend Loren Conners. And SO glad to hear about how you were bat­tling, and beat­ing, brain can­cer. My cous­in Mark had died of lymph­oma in 2002, and he was as fierce a fight­er as I knew you were. I rooted for you not just for you, and me, but for him. 

And today, you suc­cumbed. Which made me so angry, and so sad. 

The hon­or roll of artists who spon­tan­eously turned up at ISSUE tonight would have made you proud. I’d men­tion them here, except it’d sound like name-dropping… oh, to hell with it; I shared words and tears with Tony Conrad, Anthony Coleman, Steve Buscemi, John King, Bob Holman, so many oth­er won­der­ful artists who already miss you so fuck­ing bad. As does your fam­ily, as does J…as do I. I know that all of us feel a very strong man­date to keep ISSUE alive, and I write and save this blog post in the hope that some of my read­ers will be sim­il­arly moved. The web­site for Suzy’s second baby is here. Keep vis­it­ing, and find out what you can do. 

I love you, Suzy, and like I said, I already miss you so bad…

XOXOXO…

Glenn

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  • The Siren says:

    My con­dol­ences, Glenn. She sounds like a won­der­ful woman.

  • Brian says:

    So sorry to hear of your loss, Glenn.

  • Tony Dayoub says:

    Yes, Glenn… my con­dol­ences. It’s obvi­ous she touched your life in a power­ful way.

  • bill says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Glenn. She does sound like she was a hell of a woman.

  • Ed Howard says:

    Whoa, that’s really a shame. I did­n’t know her but I’ve been to vari­ous shows at ISSUE over the years as it’s shuttled around the city, and I’ve always seen her around at things and nev­er really knew who she was. Very sad. ISSUE has always been a great ven­ue, and there are few enough places in NY these days that really pro­mote and sup­port what you call “forward-looking music.”

  • steve simels says:

    How ter­ribly sad. She sounds pretty amaz­ing, Glenn – so sorry for your loss, for want of a bet­ter phrase.

  • Ms. Fiol’s passing has sent a shock through­out the avant music scene in NYC, which she did so much to sup­port dur­ing one of the least sup­port­ive peri­ods ima­gin­able for any cul­ture at all in the city, least of all for the more exper­i­ment­al sort. I did­n’t know her very well but nev­er atten­ded a bad show at IPR. The work she made posis­ble there and in its even­tu­al (+ remark­able) new home will be a liv­ing monu­ment to her tire­less ded­ic­a­tion to truly forward-looking cre­at­ive music and culture.
    My con­dol­ences to her fam­ily and friends, like Glenn.